That moment when you realise things are looking up. It’s a breath of fresh air, a feeling that you may rarely come across in life. Capture it and don’t forget how far you have come. This is how I’m starting to feel right now.
It’s been a long rocky road. Ups and downs along the way. It may, at times seemed like I’ve coped well but trust me, we all have those moments where we just feel enough is enough. I’m the fittest, healthiest, strongest and most positive i have ever been. Now, the next step to look forward to is getting back to work.
A lot has happened since I last blogged. Following my admission into hospital on my birthday, a couple of months went by and was soon back in again around Maya’s birthday. Unfortunately I missed all her birthday celebrations, but I was in the right place. I stayed in for a total of 10 days. The liver team monitored my bleeding closely and performed several procedures such as endoscopies and blood transfusions. They also kept me in for my third transplant assessment which lead them to agree that I should be strongly considered for transplantation. I’m not back on the list yet, as they feel they want to be sure that I’m mentally and physically able to cope with being back on it.
I do believe I am strong enough to cope with being on the list. It’s not as if I haven’t been on it before. It is stressful but I’m not as unwell as I was before since I was last listed, so there is less to worry about. There does not seem any urgency and concern in comparison to my previous listing, however I’ve been lead to believe that I will be back on it sometime in the near future.
Planning the future and getting back on track with life has been the toughest part of this experience yet. I haven’t struggled being in hospital, never been in a huge amount of pain or minded being on and off the list. It has been the feeling of not knowing what’s to happen next and the lack of normality. I’m starting to feel like your average 25 year old now. Hopefully stronger and in a sense, wiser than most my age.
My goal in life is to be able to look back and say to myself….”I’m glad I was born this way!”
Home for Fathers Day
New additions to balcony. A nice surprise when discharged from the hospital.