27.06.20 – Russian Farts

Guess what! I’m back at my place of work! Not working unfortunately. Im back in for treatment! I honestly thought that this year would be the year where I wouldn’t end up back in hospital. Well, it’s not like it’s been a particularly great year for everyone. At least I’d not be doing much at […]

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22.05.20 – 12:41

Today I’m having a bad day. A bad week in all honesty. I’ve been feel really de motivated, unhappy, wanting to go back home, stressed, sad, teary and fed up. I need a hug but I can’t even have that, not even from my parents who I live with. The hardest was when one of […]

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18.05.20 – Cinnamon Rolls

So I’ve been working hard on my YouTube channel for a few weeks now and when I look at the stats, I feel as if I’m doing it all for nothing. I’m impatient! I know it’ll take a few years to build up more interest. I think I’m just desperate to get back to work […]

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26.11.19 – 2020

I haven’t been feeling great mentally recently. I’m feeling fed up with all this I’ve been going through for the last 5 years. I think to myself, when will it all end, when will I get the chance to have a healthy year without any hospital admissions. I do believe, however, that 2020 will bring […]

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27.08.19 – Rest day

Chronic pain: Chronic pain is pain that carries on for longer than 12 weeks despite medication or treatment.  My patient: Are you ok dear? Me (his Nurse) – Yeah, I’m okay thanks. Don’t worry about me. My patient: Looks like you need this bed more than me! Me: 🙈 This morning I was sent home […]

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23.08.19 – Pain Team

I’ve recently had an appointment with the pain team to try and decide what alternative treatment could be offered. It wasn’t easy to hear them saying that I’d probably have this nerve pain for life. That hit me harder than I thought but I think it was because I had heard it from a professional. […]

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28.03.19 – Birthday Time

Yet another birthday spent in hospital. Luckily I was well enough to go home in the afternoon to spend time with friends. Instead of hospital dinner, which isn’t as bad as some make it out to be, we ordered pizza 🍕. I went home on Thursday 20th so I was able to celebrate properly at […]

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25.02.19 – My Mind Wonders..

Last weekend was spent at home ‘relaxing’ and recharging for this week. It’s not easy for me to relax, sit down and just stop. I find it quite challenging as my mind is constantly thinking about so much. Distraction is my best method of avoiding overthinking. Questions go through my head like, ‘Am I enough?’, […]

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